Friday, May 22, 2009

Today, I Live.

"It happens to everyone. At least once in our life-time, a person has to go through this. Feel this pain." This was said to me by a dear friend cum colleague, as we sipped on coffee in the coffee area of our work place. I still remember how she had held my hand, as I had poured my heart out about how unfair God is and why did it have to happen to my family. The words spoken by different people during that time are so vivid in my memory.

My mom was sick and I couldn't deal with it. I felt lost. My heart ached like it had never before. But that line stuck in my mind- It happens to Everyone.
What I realized then was that a person can never understand what it feels like unless she has gone through it herself. My best friend's dad had passed away a couple of years before that and I had never understood. My other friend's dad had a heart attack and I never understood. I never could understand their pain, or rather the extent of their pain.

I grieved over my mom's illness over a long time. My grief affected my own health. I remember my brother's words who was a bit concerned about me at the time, he said "Don't love somebody so much that you cannot live without them." I was touched by his concern. But thats how much I love my family, each and every one of them. And I know that he does too.

What kicked me back to reality was my mom's strength. She didn't shed a single tear, not a single drop till date. She thought that I was her support, but to speak the truth, she was ours. Our spinal cord, who held us together. Who taught me the most valuable lesson of my life - "Live in the moment".

Today, I am Alive. So Today, I Live. Live like there's no tomorrow.